Tuesday, November 26, 2013

midterms

Friday was a time to finally breathe: my psychology senior project midway had been handed in, my presentation and exam for cognitive psychology done, and my print series presented. Amanda & co. threw a Hygge Party: sweets, friends and wine.

The next day Julia threw a taco night for the tennis team. We shifted to a suite in the village and three of us ended up at smog. Taking swigs from a flask and cigarettes, watching the underclassman try hard to dance.

Anastasia's Klezmer concert, a walk by Tivoli Bays with Kelsey,  I was at Adrienne's house when it snowed for the first time this season. Took photos at TBL and I'm going home tomorrow.

Monday, November 25, 2013

Halloween 4/4



Hannah and I have been going to the Red Hook farmers
market and having Saturday brunch.
We went to a party in Tivoli because we  
heard that live music was going to be playing. I dressed up as a fox with the sign “what do I say?”. We jumped up and down to the music and I kept going up the stairs, to the porch, down the stairs to the back steps and back around to keep things spinning and spinning. Up and two drags, down and shitty warm beer, the back entrance and a hello, and around back to the dance. A couple times someone came up to me and said “you say mew!” (no) and the band switched. The girl who had been a unicorn was now Frida Colo and eventually the police came to break it up and the swarms of us trickled away. I slept over at Amanda’s place and we went to Murry’s the next morning; the drummer from one of the bands did too.
The next weekend I only went to the ISO show for 20 minutes and did work the rest of the time. Ha.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Halloween: ¾


I dressed up as a doll. We went to a student haunted house in Tivoli. People dotted the street all the way up to the house, and we entered. Descending the steps, the density of people running up and down created a sense of claustrophobia for those prone to it. There were multiple rooms, and we entered to the right first.
My first impression was of the smell: a bit fishy, certainly not that of a household. Then I realized to room was filled with hay: bales of if splitting the room in two with a low fence and the rest scattered on the floor. A papier-mâché decapitated cow hung from the ceiling; a large bowl filled with inflated gloves, evoking cow udders, stood in the corner. Behind the hay fence was a creature dressed in nothing but underwear and a horse head mask. Its human hands put hay into its horse mouth, the vinyl played over and over and over.
The second room was filled with human remains mingled with dried flowers. Heads and shoulders disappeared into vegetation (From my rotting body, flowers shall grow and I am in them and that is eternity. – Edvard Munch). It was all covered in plastic wrap. In the corner, obscured by strips of black garbage bag, someone stood cutting up what looked like slimy flesh.
To the far left was a dimly lit hallway, strips of rectangular packing material was strung from the ceiling. The first room had what looked like the remains of a suicide: no dead body, but a record of a screaming woman. Outside the room, a telephone hung off the wall: when I listened, a little boy recited nursery rhymes in a singsong voice. The next room was small, you had to crouch down and shuffle a bit before reaching an insect-bit filled refrigerator, lite by a black light and covered in insect-foam-like shaving cream. In the third hung a sign that said “babies sleeping”, jarred dolls and a softer light filled this room. There was a person with an extra arm sitting in the middle. When someone reached out to see if it was real, “can I touch it?” they asked, and the person shifted their head and shook, slowly: no.
After that we went upstairs. Behind layers of black scrim, a band played, dressed head to toe in black. Another bowl of plastic body parts stood on the couch, and I walked through the living room and found myself on the porch. I could barely move there: a girl dressed up a sushi (she was on crutches: chopsticks!) smiled and I briefly chatted with superman. Back inside I found the ladder to the attic, which led my eyes to a tv screen showing sexually morbid images, the hallway I was standing in filled with broken mirrors, the bathroom door was opened and the bathtub was filled with blood and crutches.
Eventually we escaped.



Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Halloween: 2/4


doll, Bard school spirit, Jimi Hendrix, two biker chicks
Thursday I went over to Amanda’s, face paint in hand. We ended up at a party Red Hook- a lot of people milled around and there was a strand of large Christmas lights strewn diagonally across the beer pong table. Overall a fairly low-key event: I remember a unicorn going off on a tirade about how she wants to do a joint major in film studies and French, but requirements something or other.

There were also two "Great Gatsby" parties: one on Thursday and one on Friday - parties thrown by atrociously wealthy kids. Of the first, I head that there was a VIP room guarded by a bouncer, and a bar tender. It was hard to get to and harder to leave, mostly because the house was out in the middle of nowhere, but a lot of people managed. The kid had a taxi busing people back and forth from Tewks, but only for people on a list. (wtf?)
The second was similarly far away. Damon wrote of his night there:
I spent a lot of time wandering between the mansion and the barn, which was some twenty yards out back. In the corner of the barn, near the sound system, was a model Greek column. This provided some amusement. At some point a dog was wandering around alarming three girls who were concerned it was lost. Then the owner came and claimed it, and all was well.
Fortunately, my friend B was there to drive me home. Eating ice cream sandwiches at a gas station, we saw an ambulance heading north.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Halloween: ¼



On the last Friday of October, Hannah and I went for a long walk through Red Hook. The leaves were crisp under our feet, and the wild cherries were covered in dew. We ate apple raspberry pie with whipped cream at the pie shop – one of the girls who works there is beautiful. On Saturday, my housemates threw a Halloween party --I saw half of “The Happening” while most of their guests played some board game. 

One night instead of working I listened to Eloosha read and ramble on his radio show.



Three nights ago I had a dream in which ten of my teeth fell out, and carried them around worried they would get lost – though many people have that dream. That wasn’t the central point. What had happened was a man had returned to my town and it was causing me to remember that, around age 11 or 12, I had assisted him in establishing a pattern of behavior in a boy age 15 or so. This helped the man to lure and murder the boy, and then I assisted him in covering it up. Now 21, with the man hanging around town again, the repressed memories were coming back up. I was trying to figure out what had really happened then, and how to tell the police. At first I thought perhaps it doesn’t matter, but then I realized that, while it wouldn’t change that the boy was dead, it would bring closure to the family, since they still didn’t know anything so many years later. I was worried about being arrested as an accomplice, and also very confused about how, even though I had been only 12, I had allowed myself to do anything that would lead to someone being in pain and death. And furthermore, the man was hanging around me (while my teeth were falling out) and I didn’t want him to know what I was thinking, fearing that he would kill me as well.

Friday, October 25, 2013

apple butter

I went home on the 11th for October break and went to the ICA museum. The rest of the time I studied for my Cognitive Psychology exam. Studying for psychology exams always feels (for lack of a better word) very 'meta'. For example: attending to information on attention. or trying to memorize details on memory. or being anxious about an exam on anxiety.


Friday the second time I woke up it was 6:30. I got up, burnt an egg for breakfast, and went to wait for the bus, so I could take the train, so I could take the subway, so I could go to CCNY by 11:30 and discuss the logistics and outline of my senior project, which is going to be an offshoot of my summer internship. When I got back to Bard it was 7:30 and the moon was full.

I also went to a small concert with Hannah
Frank Corliss, piano, and Marka Gustavsson, viola, will perform works for viola and piano including Hall Overton's Sonata (1959), Nino Rota's Intermezzo, Christopher Theofanidis Flow, My Tears (1997), and Sonata (1922) by Arnold Bax


on a side note, I figured out how to jar apple butter this month.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

french toast



A German a Japanese and a Russian-Jew are eating french toast.
It sounds like the beginning of a bad joke.
Bianca said she would visit me as soon as she got a job. She has a part-time unpaid internship showing art in NYC. Close enough. She came on Saturday. We walked by Blithewood and the waterfall, enjoying the sudden onset of autumn. In the evening we went to Christo's sisters band Tinmouth at smog. At some point we had texted Shinno telling him to come join us. He showed up on Sunday and Monday morning we ate french toast.



I received some advice about The Future. Bianca was an art history major. She's planning on going to Vienna for a year come December and then grad school for geospacial analysis. Shinno was a psychology major. He's planning on grad school and deciding somewhere between design and fashion and making sure to not get deported - he's on an extended student visa, but he's lived here since he was ten.


They both left Monday evening. I was just sweeping the floors and stairs (on my chore rotation) listening to Built to Spill.