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Monday, February 17, 2014

cat and wolf


Today after lunch I played squash with Dean.
[note to self: remember to ask Hannah for her squash racquet next time, tennis racquets are not kind to the wrist when it comes to swishy motions].
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Around midnight on the first of this month, two students from Bard got killed in a hit-and-run. I did not know them. All I could do was be horrified for everyone who had witnessed it, grieve for those who knew them and be furious that this woman was intoxicated and had a previous conviction for drinking and driving, and that the college had previously tried to get the town to put in sidewalks in that area but had only achieved a slight reduction in speed limit.  Before the identities of the deceased came out, the campus was somber as everyone called their friends and family to assure that they are alive, and is everyone okay, and how are you doing, and do you need anything. There was a midnight vigil held and reporters tried to stealth their way around campus like cockroaches.
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Dream: I was at a gas station and I found a fancy phone on the ground. I tried to give it to the guy who works at the Mart so that the lady who dropped it and drove off could pick it up later. But the phone started crumbling like a piece of cake and the guy at the Mart asked me what my name was and was suspicious of me. “I know what your people do” he said. He was Israeli and I didn’t know what was wrong. Later I was at my house and the police were over with the newspaper people because Yosef had refused to introduce a group at a public event. The group gave scholarships to underprivileged kids, but then was also leveraging them with the money, so that their public profile would look nice. My brother didn’t like their manipulations, and then the guy from the Mart came by to apologize for being suspicious of me. His name was Yaniv and he had a black ink tattoo on his inner forearm that looked like a wolf, about the size of a hand. Since the police where already there, they saw him, and his tattoo and mistook it for a cat. They took him in to custody since the cat symbolized some sort of cocaine dealing ring.
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I went to Amanda’s and Jo’s double birthday party later that same weekend. Another party was thrown a couple weeks later by Kalena and I went to NYC this past Wednesday to work on my project. [insert metaphor of choice about life and death here].
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Dream, cont.: I woke up from that dream into another, riding down a large hill on the back of a grocery cart, gaining speed and losing control. I finally managed to maneuver the cart onto another street, where I gave Sasha four cupcakes and told her about how I had dreamed of Yaniv, and how shitty it was that he was brought into custody. [I don’t know anyone named Yaniv, but the wolf and the cat hang in Hannah’s house].
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About a year ago over winter break, one of the Bard security guards, Larry passed away from flu complications. I had talked to him on the last night before leaving for break, and he told us a few stories about his earlier days working here, when the students were more apt to have crazy parties which left some attendees [most none-students] filling up the hospitals in the neighboring counties. Larry was one of the first Bard non-professor people working at Bard I met, he was caring

Thursday, May 23, 2013

we'll meet again


dinner at curry house with Shinno and Bianca
I’m back from Bard. Goodbye’s and sweet promises to meet up over the summer. 
Last movies:
1.       大紅燈籠高高 (Raise the Red Lantern – Chinese): we watched the first half with Chinese subtitles. Kelsey did most of the translating since she studies it, and Kalena helped with her knowledge of Japanese.  I watched the rest on my own after I found English subs.
2.       Trainspotting!
3.       About a Boy: because we needed to watch something that did not require any thought to process. Finals, after all.
  
Papa picked me up on Monday and we got home at 3am. The next day I drove Mama to the airport (she’s in Moscow now!) and when I came back Yulka had picked up Sima from gymnastics. We sat on my bed listening. Today I picked Sima up from school because he got sick but he’s on the bed next to me reading Calvin & Hobbes now.


A month ago I had a dream that Shinno and I were walking around this red city. Except at some point I realized that, even though we were walking straight, we kept coming across the same guy (someone who goes to Bard) looking through a dumpster. The city was actually one small planet.  The guy was trying to salvage items to sell – I’m not sure to whom, it seemed to be just us three on the planet, even though there were quite a few buildings to live in. When I asked Shinno about the dumpster guy, he said “he finds enough to sell throughout the week, and then on Thursday’s, he’s gone” – meaning that by Thursday he would save up enough money to shoot up on heroin.
 

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

blood and flour


русский внизу
Me, walking away after talking to Shinno;
Arianna: can I ask you a kinda awkward question?
Me: okay?
Arianna: was that just a drug purchase I observed?
Me: no, it was a fist bump.

Spring! The geese are flying to us, the spring peepers are shrill, crocuses are blooming and students are coming out from their dark rooms to lie on the grass. I even had two classes outside this week.

Sunday I went to Blithewood. Penny and Kalena were celebrating their 22nd birthday (scones, shortbread, lemon curd, clotted cream, iced tea…) Yesterday I had dinner at Jack’s co-op. Dinner conversation touched on two former residents that were on a raw-food diet. They said that there is nothing like the buzz you get from drinking cow’s blood. But cow’s blood doesn’t have any fiber, so I guess you would have to eat coconut flour along with it. One boy was at the last of the weed he had grown last year, another was a  very proud 6’7’’ half Dutch guy, the third man is a chef at Mercota’s, and a girl who was upset that Mexico had changed time zones because she has some boy in Mexico. There were two more people I didn’t meet: a regular Bard student, and a man who, 30 years later, is finally finishing his degree. The chef had a friend over. "Have you ever noticed how whenever there is a really attractive girl, there's like a cloud of men around her" he said to the chef as he poured beer into wine glasses.



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Весна! Гуси к нам летят, лягушки квакают, крокусы цветут и студенты вылезают из своих темных комнат на травке положит. У меня на этой недели даже два урока повадили на улицы.

В воскресенье я пошла в Blithwood; Пенни и Калина отмечали 22рой год. Вчера я была у Джака в кооперативе где он живет. Разговоры за обеденном столом (с другими людьми в доме) были о том что тут раньше жила парочка которая была на 'сырой диете', и они говорили что пит кровь коров сногсшибательно. Но в крови нету клетчатки, так-что надо наверно к этому кокосовою муку. Один мальчик вырастил свою анашу, другой на половину голландец и очень горд своим ростом, третий повар в хорошим ресторане, и девочка которая расстраивалась что в Мексике время сменилось, и она не смогла поговорит с мальчиком там. Тут живет еще один студент, и мужчина, который 30 спустя заканчивает свой диплом.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Love for Sale


Перевод на Русский внизу.


And now a reprise from the recounting of my trip to Russia, and a flash to the current day, about a month ahead of where I am in written word. Today is Valentine’s day, a great capitalist holiday aimed at boosting hallmark card, diamond, and chocolate sales. (Love for Sale)



On the first of February, TBL had the first show of the semester. Mark was one of the readers, so I got to talk to him while he wasn’t tripping on LSA. Marty and Ben read too; the show was good, the atmosphere was sweet.
I had a conversation with a girl, it went something like this:
Her: what do you like to do?
Me: in what context?
Her: like, if you are alone in your room, what do you do? Other than the obvious.
Me, thinking to myself “well, despite being double moderated into psychology and studio art, I don’t paint or read psychology articles when in my room”
Her: and by the obvious, I mean masturbate.
(I don’t know if she remembers, she wasn’t exactly sober.)


A couple days later I joined Kalena, Mark and Kanat for dinner. Mark was planning to serenade a girl for Valentine’s Day. The problem being that he can’t sing, so he was asking Kanat to sing from behind a bush.

Hot chocolate with Bianca, Amanda and Jo’s double 21st birthday party, dealing with psychology department bureaucracy, re-watching White Sun of the Desert and
The girl I share a wall with, my neighbor, came to me on Monday night. She said that she was going on a date the next night, and that her and a friend from high school had decided that it was good luck to wear something that isn’t yours on a date. She was drunk and let her try on my dresses, and she gave me one of hers for fairness. On Wednesday I went to her small birthday party. The alarm in Robins had gone off and they took refuge in the Manor Annex common room: the buzz of voices, the sound of Bohemian Rhapsody on an out-of-tune piano. It felt like a saloon.
And
I was walking back to my dorm at night, and saw three people playing with a baseball. It was on fire, they were throwing it around with special gloves. I continued walking past Catskill dorm, were I heard the swell of drunken singing. “Hey Catskill, no partying!” one of the baseball boys yelled.


This is Bard, welcome back.

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И теперь, пауза от моих воспоминание о России, и взгляд в текущий день, где-то на месяц опережая то о чем я писала до этого. Сегодня день Святого Валентина, прекрасный капиталистический праздник цель которого повысит продажу открыток,бриллиантов и шоколада. (песня Элла Фицджеральд, Love for Sale)

Первого февраля,
TBL устроило первое шоу семестра. Марк зачитывал, так что поговорила с ним в этот раз пока он не был под влиянием LSA. Марти и Бен тоже читали; было приятно, все прошло удачно.
Я поговорила с девочкой, разговор был такой-
Она: Что ты любишь делать?
Я: в каком контексте?
Она: ну, если ты одна в комнате, что ты делаешь? Кроме очевидного
Я думою «несмотря на то, что меня приняли на отделение психологии и исскуства, я не занимаюсь ни тем, ни тем в своей
 комнате»
Она: под очевидным, я имела в виду дрочить
(я не знаю, помнить ли она этот разговор, она была не совсем трезва.)


Два дня спустя, я присоединилась к Калини, Марку и Канату на ужин. Марк планировал исполнять серенаду девочке которая ему нравится на день Святого Валентина. Проблема состояла том, что он не умеет петь, так что он просил Каната спеть из куста.
Какао с Бианкой, Аманда и Джо отмечали двадцатиоднолетие, я разбиралась с бюрократией департамента психологии, пересмотр кино Белое Солнце Пустыни и...
Девочка с которой я делю стену, моя соседка, пришла ко мне в понедельник. Она сказала что у нее на следующий день свидание, и что она со школьной подружкой решили что надевать что-то чужое на свидание это хорошая примета. Она была пьяная и я ей дала померить мои платья, и она мне дала свое, для честности. В среду у нее было день рождение, и был маленький собирушник. Позже, в соседней общаге заработала пожарная сигнализация, и они все пришли в наше здание греться. Воздух жужжал голосами, кто-то играл Bohemian Rhapsody на расстроенном пианино, и на тот момент, комната превратилась в таверну.
И
Я шла обратно в общежитие ночью, и увидела как три человека играют с бейсбольном мячом. Он горел, они его кидали специальными перчатками. Я продолжала, и шла мимо общеги Катцкиль; крещендо пьяного пения. И один из мальчиков который играл с горящем мячом закричал «Хэй, Катцкил, хватит пьянствовать!».

Добро пожаловать, Бард.