estradiol

I came to the library at 8 (now it's 20 min later), way later than I wanted to. 
because: exam, class, food, selected photos and Ari came over for tea, met with Larry Fink at 5 (I am officially going to be taking a tutorial next semester, wooo!) and then Adrienne was packing and then we said goodbye and then I realized I hadn't eaten in 5 hours, so I had to fix that.
So now I'm finally here studying for neuroscience. 
thankfully the exam isn't until 11:50, which makes me feel much better, somehow, because at least I'll get to have breakfast.

things to look forward to:
-dorm activity at 11pm, namely the consumption of breakfast food. (Kalena and I did end up making pancakes. Specifically from macadamia-nut banana pancake mix her grandmother sent her from Hawaii.)
-showering.

things not to look forward to:
-the bareness of the room now that Adrienne is gone. She said we will hang out next year. And that skype exists.
-feeling unprepared for the exam no matter what.

I haven't been procrastinating. I can't concentrate.
It's not humid or hot in here, unlike outside or in most other buildings. which is a good thing, the books aren't getting damp, but it's also cold, so I'm going back to my dorm to get a sweater.

45 minutes: to stand outside and watch people smoke, to go to my dorm and get a sweater (with Britt, she borrowed one, and rain-boots, and thick socks,) to try to explain some statistics to Justin, to sit down. 

I can't concentrate. I can't concentrate. I can't concentrate. I'm freaking out because there is so much more I need to go over, but I can't read it. 

I woke up a couple days with the word estradiol just hovering above me, definition just out of reach.