life - some stuff = this

A week ago it snowed but today I walked around in just a dress and tights, it was so warm

Last night I made Brit pasta and the day before that was Monday and...I don't recall anything happening then, or Sunday either.
Saturday was the first time I had ever gotten called to actually drive anyone to the hospital for my shift, and next time I will be significantly less anxious. Hannah and Anna came over at the end of my shift and we made stir-fry and crepes and it was very delicious.
Friday I had my first proper photo seminar class. Went well, but I'm worried I won't be able to collect everyone into a room for photos like I would like to. Also, Brit, Shivalika, Clea and I celebrated Clea getting an interview for a competitive film school in Spain.

I think that sums it up.

This isn't a recent dream but I haven't written them down in a while;

I was a person but then I got turned into a vampire, so I changed my attire to something more vampire-esk. And then I feasted, I think with a lot of other vampires as well, and then we came upon a group nestled in the woods. Unfortunately, they also turned out to be vampires, so we couldn't drink them, but they shared some of their recently-consumed victims. However, one of the girls that was from this encampment wasn't a vampire. Apparently they had all been converted at some point, but she hid and now she was just pretending to drink human blood not to be discovered. She gave me some pomegranate juice and I regained my conscious. I noticed that one member of her clan was starting to catch on, and we were about to leave. So I took the girl to a small church on a lake at night, to save her. It wasn't really so much a church as it was a little anti-vampire hut, with an old religious man who knew where to take her. The enchantments on it didn't really work, since I could get in, but it was better than nothing and they did know some ways to kill vampires, so I fled before I was found out.

I should sleep

I lied a bit. I think I went to bed with 2.5 pages done. Usually I only have a page left, and can drop off to sleep, but this time I couldn't. Which is dumb, since I just ended up starting writing at 6:10 and it's 7:20 and I have 4.5 pages done, solid. I wish I had just slept, since there was nothing to worry about.

also I recently participated in an individual cold-tolerance study, which is conducted by a senior who I've had two classes with (health psych and adult psych) and who gave me a tour of Bard on accepted students day. It's a way more interesting experiment than it sounds, for those of you at Bard who have time, I recommend participating (I might just be really nerdy)

I also dropped by the clay club area and met with the head Monday. She's sweet, and a freshman. Everything is so cramped in there (but she still wants there to be like...3 people in there at a time to form a community. Which is nice, but also unrealistic.)

Also I made myself food from stuff from kline last night.
I had:
spinach, green peppers, tomatoes, tofu, mushrooms.
and then combined that with bean noodles, spicy 'fire' oil and soy sauce.
It was very very good.
now back to sleep.

Peasantry

If  I had not studied so hard for that exam, I would have done very very badly.
I have a 5 page paper due tomorrow. I'm going to bed. I have 3 pages done but I'm done hating on Wordsworth for the night, and coming up with alternatives to 'peasantry'. I'll just wake up at 7 and finish it then.

• Rural people
• People from the country side
• Country-dwellers
• People who live a pastoral life
• Farmers
• The poor
• Provincial people
• The underprivileged
• People who work the land
• Country population
• “low and rustic” people
• Working class

This is how I write essays. I make everything tiny, in a different font, single spaced. And then at this point I get curious and decide to check how long it is (it was 2.5 pages) though of course I look at it at 200% on the screen, the words are too tiny to see otherwise.

stress coming at me from all sides.

tiny braids

I shouldn't be on here right now but I finished making all my nuero flashcards and my research methods ones too. (two exams and an essay first 3 days of the week, wooo)
friday the CSA had a hair braiding thing. I got my hair done in a lot of tiny braids. Initially I looked a bit like 7-yr-old because of the colorful scrunchies (as Shareesa, who did most of it, said.) But Lauren got me black ones so now its black blue purple and pink.


We celebrated Hannah's birthday yesterday by going to Arielle, then Lauren came by to film me drawing for her project, and then Adrienne's family came by and her sister stayed the night, but they where both gone by the time I woke up. Haven't seen Adrienne all day.

that is all. 

Astrology

I backed down on something today because it was 1am, I was tired and I'm not close enough with the person to argue every point.

But I regret it, because I feel like it led to the invalidation of one of the fields of study I care about.
I'm sorry, the Myer-Briggs test is just way more legit than astrology.
People make too big a deal of it, but it is still not just stars and vague assignments.
some people prefer to control their environment and have frameworks, others prefer to make decisions only when they have to and having their choices open.
This varies person to person, not month to month, and is based on self report.


earth and water are not real characteristics. 490,000 babies are born every day. I doubt that all the ones born in June have the same personality.

I said that (I'm a Torus on the cusp) the whole "it being sense-driven" is not at all who I think I am, or what the Myer-Briggs test said. She said "well you are on the cusp" and I laughed, because to me it sounded like a joke! But it wasn't, and she was offended.
I sooo don't give a shit about astrology, I understand why some people think it's fun. I also know that it's set up to be convincing (and vague) and I also think that maybe for some people it give a framework to compare against, helping to think about people, possibly, though that's as far as I'm willing to stretch on it's validity, and I was feeling creative.

Never before coming to Bard did I feel like a super-sciency person. But this is just bullshit! time and time again I bump into people that question science because they feel like it has too much authority. And I'm sorry, you can't rebel against authority just 'cause. It's important to question, but there is a reason I'm sure that Whooping Cough vaccine I got as a baby works, and that when I stare at a red screen my retina compensates and in turn makes a white wall look green when I look at it afterwords, and that caraway and spearmint chemicals are reflections of each other, that neurons are negatively charged cells, and that proteins are made out of amino acids coded for by rna, which in turn is coded for by dna and that the silver ions on photo paper light-sensitive and that the Earth is very very tiny in comparison to the Sun, the solar system it's in, and the Universe(s) that we all reside in.

 most of this, especially when put together, is hard to wrap my mind around. I guess doubting any of it is right is easier than learning it and understanding it and believing any of it.

Bard gets to me sometimes.

tripod

ordered a tripod. wooo!
also chamber singing for this week was cancelled so we are finally resting.
today I went to/had
class
food with people
class
room
library
food without people
library
room
art studio
food with person
room

riveting.


oh! but also I hung out with Anna the other day and she told me there is a ceramics club! I contacted the head and there is a kiln, pug machine, one wheel and "tons of clay"
how happy am I? very happy.

Saturday AM shift

My application for emergency driving didn't go through, but Jasper contacted me asking if I was interested because he saw me at one of the mandatory meetings. Turned out he already staffed, since he didn't see my application, but someone had dropped from the Sat AM shift, so I have a job again.
We are both desperate I guess and take what we can get? I was starting to worry I wouldn't get even the amount of money I got last semester.

I will now go and make myself some black tea with ginger and honey.